Pardon me while I flail about.

[slr2moons]

I need to stop freaking out at the idea of working on my original manga, really. The most poorly-drawn, badly written webcomic out there has something over mine: it's out there. People can read it. Can people read my manga, my webcomics?? NO. A handful of pages and the comdic oneshot, that's it. BAH!

I'm such a weenie. Still so afraid of drawing attention to myself and being mocked as a result. If I've learned one thing watching from the sidelines of fandomsecrets, it's that no matter how good or bad something or someone is, someone out there will love it and someone else will hate it.

I'm so worried about what other people will think. "If I do black and white only, lots of people won't read it for that reason alone! But if I color every page, it'll take forever for me to finish a single page! If I draw in my usual manga style, people will mock me since I'm a white American! But I love that look, it's what I want to do! Everyone is so obsessed with having a ~*~`~unique~`~*~ art style for their webcomic, if mine doesn't stand out and shriek "I'M AN INDIVIDUAL!!!1!11one!!" people will dismiss me as a lazy weeaboo! But if I wait to develop a non-manga ~*~`~unique~`~*~ art style before starting my webcomic, it will be even LONGER before I begin posting! I need a proper webpage and server to host my stuff, but my HTML skills aren't good enough! If I study to make them so, it will take time away from the actual CREATING of the webcomic! But if I have to pay someone, that's money lost! And can I afford my own domain name and server space?! But how does all that even matter if I don't have anything to post??! How can I post if I can't be confident in how I should draw it?!?"

That's me: running in circles, flailing, freaking out about the nameless masses all set up to hate my stories on sight. Ugh. I want to slap myself.

I paid dearly for my spare time, even if I have so little of it right now. I need to start using it to work on my original stuff again.

I'm going to start roughing out my comics as storyboards rather than scripts. Comics ARE a visual medium, making mine so from the start will let me use that to its greatest advantage. And while I figure out what to do about the webpage angle, I can build a completed page buffer. Everyone wins! (Except the manga haters, I suppose.) *snerk*