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Ma...masaka....
20/10/07 00:25Most of you have probably noticed the Grand Reunion of Old Friends going on in the previous post. That started me thinking, and I realized something huuuuuuuuuuuge.
The friends I made before my trip, even before my job...the ones I made before I "found" myself, before I lost all that weight and became so much more centered and confident....only two of them still talk to me. One has been a friend since I was in the 6th grade, and she changed just like this long before I did. We stuck it out, and now we match rather well. The other became a friend a year or two before the new job, and was with me through the transition, and has changed much the same way herself. (L-chan and Kiokonai, for the record. *waves to Kiokonai*)
The rest, the ones who knew the quiet don't-look-at-me-OMG-I'm-so-scared-of-everything s2m?? They don't seem to care for the new me. I've counted, and the grand total is 5. FIVE! Holy crap! What a revelation!! What is it about the new me that drove them away?? All of you here are friends I've made after this change, so obviously I'm still a good person and haven't become a complete bitch or anything.
...And I just realized something else. The two that are still here, that I'm even closer with now??? They changed too.
*speechless and very wide-eyed*
The friends I made before my trip, even before my job...the ones I made before I "found" myself, before I lost all that weight and became so much more centered and confident....only two of them still talk to me. One has been a friend since I was in the 6th grade, and she changed just like this long before I did. We stuck it out, and now we match rather well. The other became a friend a year or two before the new job, and was with me through the transition, and has changed much the same way herself. (L-chan and Kiokonai, for the record. *waves to Kiokonai*)
The rest, the ones who knew the quiet don't-look-at-me-OMG-I'm-so-scared-of-everything s2m?? They don't seem to care for the new me. I've counted, and the grand total is 5. FIVE! Holy crap! What a revelation!! What is it about the new me that drove them away?? All of you here are friends I've made after this change, so obviously I'm still a good person and haven't become a complete bitch or anything.
...And I just realized something else. The two that are still here, that I'm even closer with now??? They changed too.
*speechless and very wide-eyed*
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